The new family!

So here we are, with N3 on the way!! I have had a really rough start to this one! I was so sick to start with, not like morning sickness though! I would be struck with crippling cramps right across my belly that would leave me breathless and unable to move! I had to be rescued from the side of the freeway one morning as I couldn't sit up straight!! These episodes would be followed by headaches and often bleeding! And bleeding is not a good thing, especially seeings I'm b neg blood group which mean I have to have an anti D shot - translation - big arse needle!!! And I don't really like needles!!! But no one could explain why I would be getting them!! Then in addition I have had low blood pressure too! So standing up has become an issue!! Not to mention stairs!!!! And just when you thought it couldn't get any worse I have also got varicose veins!! And not just a little spot on my leg, this thing has taken over my right calf! I don't know what to do or how to stop it, it just keeps growing, now moving on to my foot! N1 has described it as being similar to the wall in mr magoreums wonder emporium!! And if you have ever seen this movie, then you'll understand that that is not a compliment!!! But, thankfully the little devil (PND) has not reared it's head this time round! I have not been isolating myself, in fact I've been the opposite! Due to all the complication earlier on I had to finish work early! So just before Christmas I packed up and left my little office, which was sad in a way but in others was such a relief! Within a month I was already seeing the difference in myself! I was still unwell, but no where near as bad as before! I was becoming very emotional at one point, but then I realized it was the lack of sleep and stress, once those factors were fixed, I was back on the home straight! So I have not worked at all this year, except for helping with hubby's business! Which is starting to pick up!!! I thought I would be bored out of my brains by now, but I have enjoyed being at home with my little ladies! So this year N1 started grade 2! Nuts!! I can't believe how big she is getting and how fast! She already has a chip on shoulder, and I dread the day she becomes a teenager! She is a superstar though! Such a beautiful heart, but so lazy!! Trying to get her to do anything can be a real chore!! But I love her more than anything!! Then there's N2! She turned two this year and has changed completely! Some people say Childcare is good for kids, but now I don't agree! N1 really thrived in that environment, but she had a great centre with exceptional teachers! Poor little N2 struggled! She hated being dropped off, when we picked her up she was always tired and sooky! The centre itself was a let down! So many times we would pick her up and she was outside with no jacket or beanie in winter and the teachers would be rushing about doing nothing! But we have such a shortage of places in our area that I had to keep her there! When I started to really have some trouble in this pregnancy, hubby was encouraging me to give up work, we'd done the figures and knew that we could afford it, it of course would just mean it would be tighter!! I ummed and ahhed about it for ages and decided to hold off as long as possible. Then one day I picked N2 up and she was sooky and restless and just in one of those moods that she always was in these days! Her teacher tells me she'd only slept for 25 minutes and they couldn't resettle her so ... Tough, basically!! I was rope-able! The two days prior she had a soiled nappy when I went to pick her up, and she hadn't slept either of those days either!! So come this particular Wednesday I was mad! I picked her up cursing the place as I walked out knowing that without sleeping properly for three days now, tonight she will be a nightmare!!! I put her in her car seat and she starts crying and carrying on, already feeling like the worlds worst mum, I crack it and tell her she must sit or she won't be coming home! Silly move, because of course this sends her through the roof! I strap her in and drive the two second drive to N1's school and by then N2 is beside herself! We hop out of the car and she can hardly walk up to the classroom where N1 is, and I realize she must have a sore bum! I picked her up and she wouldn't even open her legs to sit on my hip! I had to hold her like a baby cradled in my arms! On the trip home she had to sit sideways on her sisters lap so she wasn't in pain!!! I was concerned now, as soon as we got home, we went straight upstairs I laid her on my bed and took off her nappy! I though a shower and and some nappy cream and she'll be fine! But when I moved the nappy away and saw giant welts on her bum and legs I was mortified! How could anyone let her get to this! They weren't there in the morning when I dressed her! No wonder she couldn't sit! Straight away I was on the phone! Which isn't like me!! Normally I would contemplate it for a bit, but this time they'd pissed me right off! I tore shreds off the centre manager when she answered the phone, she apologized and assured me she would talk to the staff on her room that day! What more could she do really? The next day I dropped her off and one of the teachers I knew were on and I asked if she had heard about my rampage the night before knowing that she was there late yesterday! Only to hear that nothing was said! I again was so mad! So all the dribble that had come out of the woman's mouth the previous night was complete and utter crap! This poor woman in front of me could see the change in my face and instantly said she'll ensure she keeps an eye on her today! I got in the car, rung hubby and lost it!! When i got to work that morning I rang through my unofficial resignation! I wasn't wasting another second! It was the best feeling! Better then the delightful chat I was looking forward to having with the centre manager later on! So that is what twisted my arm to leave work! But since having her at home, she has been a different child!!! So now, here I am! 3 weeks and 2 days to go in my pregnancy!! You are completely up to date with everything in our lives!! And I hope to keep it that way!