Lost my mojo?

Just not feeling the love the last few weeks! I've just gone 6 weeks post pregnancy and now should be the time that you start feeling better, hubby should be loving that I have fully recovered and I'm just not feeling it!
I had a dream the other night that hubby left me and it was because he wasn't attracted to me anymore! That morning I sent him a messaged telling him of my dream and playfully he replied that I have nothing to worry about because he's to old and lazy to find a new missus! That isn't very comforting! There was never any mention of I think you're beautiful or I still think your sexy at all!
And now I feel all this self doubt is starting to take its toll. I feel ugly and unattractive! I need to get myself out of this slump, but after three kids the body isn't bouncing back and I have held on to more weight then I would have liked, therefore bouncing back is a lot harder then I hoped! Now in turn I feel like I have become miserable and grumpy around the house!!! I guess it doesn't help that I am awake more then I sleep these days!
HELP ME!!!! WHAT DO I DO?!?!?!?!?!

The birthday sneaky sneak!!

Today the girls and I managed to pull off the big sneaky surprise!!! The day started with breakfast in bed. The girls handed daddy his birthday card and we had written the days plans in it!


He was so surprised! He had no idea that we were doing any of it! So whilst the girls and I cleaned down stairs, he relaxed in bed! At about 12 my mother in law came round and we made the trip to Daylesford! Half way there I realized that maybe I should have picked some where closer!!! Hubby agreed! But how was I to know he was going to take us away for the weekend?!? We arrive just before 2 and grab ourselves some yummy fish and chips which we devoured in the car!! Mind you it was freezing cold and rainy!! Just our luck!! After eating we make our way to the day spa and relax for the next hour, being massaged and chillaxing! After we were done, I manage to get him to go for walk through the shops to kill some time! Because it was so cold, we were hoping to find somewhere that was serving scones and a yummy hot chocolate!! But surprisingly we lucked out!! We start making our way home and I'm getting excited!! I get the thumbs up from. My mother in law that they were ready too!! We arrive home at about 6 pm and that had given everyone a chance to arrive so as we pull up he notices one of our friends cars parked out he front!! "what the hell is he doing here?!?" and I can't help but let out a little giggle! "what have you done Hayley???" hahahaha!!!! Surprise!!!! We get in side and he was a little shocked and happy! I know he doesn't like being the centre of attention, but it was only brief and the he was able to relax and enjoy a nice couple of hours with friends! The girls had done an awesome job decorating the house! There were streamers and balloons everywhere! Sadly I didn't get a pic as my phone has died by this point and no batteries in the camera!!! Always the way!! So I guess I'm safe to say the night was a success! We all ate, had a couple of drinks, sang happy birthday and went to bed with smiles on our faces!! I love you baby!!! Happy birthday xx - Always a smile from us

Lorne

So here we are on our awesome weekend away! Hubby surprised us during the week by saying let's get away for the weekend! So on Friday we pack our things, picked mikayla up from school early and took off down the coast! This has to be my favorite part about living in Melbourne! The ease of getting from the hussle and bustle to the tranquility of the beach is so simple!!! We were able to attempt dinner at the Lorne hotel last night which was amazing as always! The girls were great and so well behaved which is nice for a Change!! N2 is loving the idea of being on holidays! She keeps asking to go to the new house?!? I think she'll be quite sad when pack up and go this afternoon!!! We decided to stayed at the Mantra Erskine Beach and this place is fantastic! The only thing that it lacks is the beach views. However the heated pool has been a winner with the kids as has the massive grassed area in the middle!


It's a great spot as we can watch the kids run wild from our room!!! We are only here for one night but that is just enough when you have a 6 week old baby I think!!! Yet in saying that she has been brilliant and even went for her first swim today!! Well she sat in the spa with me anyway, that's close enough! Heading home this afternoon was kind of my idea though as the girls and I have organized a bit of a surprise day for hubby tomorrow as his birthday is wednesday next week!! So the idea is to wake him up with breakfast in bed, as he does early starts so we can't do it during the week, with breakie will be a card with our itinerary for the day, including ditching the kids, driving to Daylesford, doing lunch and massages!! I'm really looking forward to it! But what he won't know, is that while we are gone, the girls and my mother and sister in law will be decorating and organizing the surprise dinner for when we get home!!!! I'm so excited, it should be a great day! But while I lay here on the bed with hubby and two kiddies sleeping, the other watching movies on her itouch,


I can't help but think of all the things I should be doing at home!!!!! The house needs to be mopped and tidied and washing is decorating the place like a laundromat!!! Argh!! I wish the fairies would visit our house!! Stay tuned and I'll be sure to rub in how great our day was in Daylesford! And how the surprise went!! - Always a smile from us

Location:Mountjoy Parade,Lorne,Australia

That moment ...

Have you ever had a moment in life where you feel as though time has slowed down and you can faintly hear your background music fading in?!? I had that moment today! And of all places, in the doctors surgery!! Little N3 started giggling yesterday, so today she looks up at me with those big, wide eyes and half a smile. She gets my attention almost straight away, and as if she knew it she rolls out this almighty chuckle that had every woman in the waiting room with me, oooing and ahhing with delight! I was so love struck, staring at her in awe!! Time honestly stopped for a few seconds while we stared at each other, it was a priceless moment, one that you'll remember for ever!! - Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

Childless!!!

WHOA!!!!!!!
You wouldn't believe it if I told you! I am almost childless! Two of three of my babies are out today and I have turned into this cleaning monster! You should see my house sparkle! Jenna (the dog) and I have cleaned this place from top to bottom and now I think I need a Nana nap!
I have forgotten what it is like to be on my own! It seems the last few weeks have just been a sea of kids on holidays and visitors! It is so nice to sit here now with a cup of tea and write to you ... whoever you are?? Is there anyone out there??
Although yesterday we hit Highpoint! Shopping spree! The four girls and their purses! We got toys and clothes and shoes! It was awesome! Bargains galore! The girls thought it was Christmas in July!!
We also did Scienceworks on the weekend!! Now that was awesome! again the four of us went and they were so well behaved! Entry for the kids was free and only $8 for myself to get in and we spent hours wandering through all the exhibits they have to offer! I couldn't believe how much fun we had!

We have also had my sister in law down from interstate. We have all been so thrilled to have her here for the past week, but sadly she heads home this afternoon, which is where the kids are! Heading to the airport! So a big farewell to Aunty Kristie! Can't wait for October to zoom round so we can catch up again xx

4 weeks in!

Wow! Why does time fly so fast with a new born in the house!! Sitting in the arm chair in N3's room after a half hour session of settling! Why is it so hard?!? Mean while, N1 wants to play a board game and N2 is crying for her mummy!! Argh!!!
Things have been really good these past few week though so I really can't complain! My mother in law needs a huge shout out, as she has been awesome since we've been home! She stayed with us for the first week home which was fantastic! Night feeds were so much easier with her there.
Now its school holidays and think I'm going insane! The girls have not stopped yelling and throwing all their toys on the floor! Everytime I come up stairs there us more mess!!! No matter how many times we all clean up, it's back a few minutes later! But if that's the worst of it then I really should be counting my lucky stars!! I can see that N3 is starting to become unsettled though, which worries me as the other two were bad sleepers and I just don't want another! I'm doing everything I can to make her sleep on her own, like not picking her up when she cries, vacuuming while she's asleep having the tv on near her, I just can't handle another bad sleeper! I'll be locked in a padded cell! I still struggle with N2 at nighttime so another would tip me over the edge!
But since being home we have been so relaxed and happy! N1 has returned to school and the settling process for her was almost instant! She is such a well behaved girl, she obviously has her moments ... But who doesn't!!
And N2 has truly surprised me!! She is brilliant! So attentive and loving toward her new little sister!! Sharing her toys, wanting her to play with her, sit with her, (trying to) share drinks and food!! I honestly thought that my little cyclone would have turned into this little wild child, but it seems to have settled her in some way! Sadly, I still have heard nothing from my family! My two oldest girls received cards on their birthdays, but I had nothing on mine, go figure! I'm so tired of playing childish games with my parents!! These are the people that are meant to help you, be there for you whenever you need them! I don't expect them to be babysitting every weekend, I just want to be able to have someone on my side when I'm down, have a mum to go shopping with or the movies! Someone to guide me and pull me up when I'm being a tool! But because of the childish nature of both my parents, I don't have that relationship. I have nothing. So, basically at the moment we are surviving! I thought there may have been a massive break down by now, but no ... Not yet! I managing being a mum to three beautiful girls at the age of 29, who would have thought it!!!!